11. Thread


11. CORRODING THREAD   “Unspeakable fear” is not from the Twelve Step literature; it is from me. I find fear to be almost impossible to talk about. When I talk about fear directly, the subject matter has no solid meaning. There is my fear of falling, of taking tests, of public speaking, or of dying.…

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12. Tornado


12. TORNADO   What did I want from addiction? Happiness at first. Then freedom from pain. What did addiction bring me? Unhappiness. Pain. I didn’t go there alone—I was married and had a family. As the winds of addiction hollowed out my humanity, I became less of a comfort to my loved ones. No matter…

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